Maybe you'll wondering who's in my heart now aite?Did I already found his replacement?Truth is,I got no one.I just have my friends and the one who always cheer my day up is Alif budak pelik.He's always here for me since Oman left.I don't think I like him.because I'm not ready to be inlove yet.but I really do appreciate him.Love keep breaking my heart and I don't think I like it so yeah I'll take my time,enjoy single life,study hard and study smart for my SPM this year.Isn't that sounds better?Alif always push me to not to be a lazy ass and he push me in my homework,I mean to do my homework on time,no postpone allowed! He's a really great friend :)
WOI AlIF THANKYOUUUUUUUUU !!
Empty heart I have.
Luqman,he IM me yesterday.He apologize and all.he said he regret what he did to me last time.and what's surprising me is,I thought I still love him.but no,I don't.There's no love left for him in this heart anymore.I can accept him as a friend but not more than a normal friend.I don't want the same exact things happen again and again.I'm sick of it.Too many chances given,too many hopes,too many heartbroken.and now I feel empty.No feelings left.It has gone with the wind.It's his fuckin fault.He broke my heart into a tiny little pieces.Now karma has bit him in the ass.What goes around comes around,remember?You can't run anywhere.You can't hide.Karma has done their job. *big claps* and jot this down,I won't accept someone who once broke my heart.I won't.
Fuck this
Did you really expect me to wait for you? to put my life on hold because you were unsure of your feelings? I've made it clear since day one,you're all I ever wanted.Don't say to me fuck that or fuck this.I've put up with your shit for too long.I've let you manipulate me,and lead me on.All for it to lead to this.I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough for you.and listen,I don't like to delete our old texts because I feel like I'm deleting history but you know what,in our fuckin case,I want to delete it,because I don't want you there in my history.Maybe everyone were right about 'Never regret something that once made you smile' but I do regret it.I regret for knowing you,I regret for letting you own my heart and I regret the time I wasted on you.I regret I smiled when you said those fake words to me.Those Iloveyou,those Imissyou,those Iwantyouforever,those Ineedyou,those staywithme.Now,fuck you.I hope you're not happy.
MLH < / 3
MLH < / 3
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Fuck Luqman.Now I know he just toy my heart,my feeling.WOI LISTEN HERE EH,I hate you and I will always hate you.Kau gunakan aku untuk lupakan dayana? Apa fuck punya perangai weh? Aku menyesal kenal kau.and I mean it.Sorry but now I dh over you and I nak move on with someone else.Takecare and I hope you won't be happy.
Total done
I shouldn't wasting my time on him.He don't deserve me.He don't deserve my time.He's still stuck with his past and trust me,he won't get over it.He might over it one day but that's gonna be too late.I'm done with this shit,I'm total done.Now it's time for me to move on,to give anyone else a chance.I need to focus on my studies,and maybe I need to find a new boyfriend.Maybe.We'll see what happen next.
Pray the best for me.
Pray the best for me.
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He texted me just now.He wish me goodmorning and he said he's starting to miss me,my voice.and I want him to know that I miss him so much.I just don't wanna reply his text because I know I shouldn't.We both are over in every way.I don't want things go worst,even worst than this.I miss everything about him.I wish I can tell him how much I miss him,how much I want him back in my life,how much it's killing me.
I told everyone that I'm okay,I'm fine without you but that's all are just a lie.I'm not okay without you.I'm a mess.
I told everyone that I'm okay,I'm fine without you but that's all are just a lie.I'm not okay without you.I'm a mess.
Sucks
My first day of school and my first day without Luqman went well.Yea I have to admit that it sucks abit.I can't get him out of my mind.He's here 24/7.I tried to forget him but failed.What should I do?He seems very happy with his life without me.and I'm dying here without him by my side.It's really hurt wake up in the morning and realize that he's gone,he's not mine anymore.I can't believe this would happen.It's a nightmare.Losing him and it feels like losing my other part of my body.It hurts so much.I don't know how to get rid of this emptiness.I don't know how.and I know we'll never be together back.I have to let him go.He don't need me.and I won't waste my time waiting for him.I'm done,but I can't forget him either.It's okay,time will heal the pain.and yea,Imma stay single for awhile.I'm not ready to love again.I'm just not ready to get another heartbroken yet.
This is it
So this is all just your fuckin game?Luqman,we're over.Goodluck with your life and goodluck on getting her back.I'll move on and I'll show to you that I don't need you,I don't need a liar like you in my life.I can find better.maybe Paul,maybe someone else.We don't know the future.So yeah,goodbye and thanks alot for breaking my heart.
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