Aaron Ajiz pun bolehhh

Maybe you'll wondering who's in my heart now aite?Did I already found his replacement?Truth is,I got no one.I just have my friends and the one who always cheer my day up is Alif budak pelik.He's always here for me since Oman left.I don't think I like him.because I'm not ready to be inlove yet.but I really do appreciate him.Love keep breaking my heart and I don't think I like it so yeah I'll take my time,enjoy single life,study hard and study smart for my SPM this year.Isn't that sounds better?Alif always push me to not to be a lazy ass and he push me in my homework,I mean to do my homework on time,no postpone allowed! He's a really great friend :)

WOI AlIF THANKYOUUUUUUUUU !!

Empty heart I have.

Luqman,he IM me yesterday.He apologize and all.he said he regret what he did to me last time.and what's surprising me is,I thought I still love him.but no,I don't.There's no love left for him in this heart anymore.I can accept him as a friend but not more than a normal friend.I don't want the same exact things happen again and again.I'm sick of it.Too many chances given,too many hopes,too many heartbroken.and now I feel empty.No feelings left.It has gone with the wind.It's his fuckin fault.He broke my heart into a tiny little pieces.Now karma has bit him in the ass.What goes around comes around,remember?You can't run anywhere.You can't hide.Karma has done their job. *big claps* and jot this down,I won't accept someone who once broke my heart.I won't.

Lots of thing to tell.but got no time to write.

Fuck this

Did you really expect me to wait for you? to put my life on hold because you were unsure of your feelings? I've made it clear since day one,you're all I ever wanted.Don't say to me fuck that or fuck this.I've put up with your shit for too long.I've let you manipulate me,and lead me on.All for it to lead to this.I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough for you.and listen,I don't like to delete our old texts because I feel like I'm deleting history but you know what,in our fuckin case,I want to delete it,because I don't want you there in my history.Maybe everyone were right about 'Never regret something that once made you smile' but I do regret it.I regret for knowing you,I regret for letting you own my heart and I regret the time I wasted on you.I regret I smiled when you said those fake words to me.Those Iloveyou,those Imissyou,those Iwantyouforever,those Ineedyou,those staywithme.Now,fuck you.I hope you're not happy.

MLH < / 3

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Fuck Luqman.Now I know he just toy my heart,my feeling.WOI LISTEN HERE EH,I hate you and I will always hate you.Kau gunakan aku untuk lupakan dayana? Apa fuck punya perangai weh? Aku menyesal kenal kau.and I mean it.Sorry but now I dh over you and I nak move on with someone else.Takecare and I hope you won't be happy.

Total done

I shouldn't wasting my time on him.He don't deserve me.He don't deserve my time.He's still stuck with his past and trust me,he won't get over it.He might over it one day but that's gonna be too late.I'm done with this shit,I'm total done.Now it's time for me to move on,to give anyone else a chance.I need to focus on my studies,and maybe I need to find a new boyfriend.Maybe.We'll see what happen next.

Pray the best for me.

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He texted me just now.He wish me goodmorning and he said he's starting to miss me,my voice.and I want him to know that I miss him so much.I just don't wanna reply his text because I know I shouldn't.We both are over in every way.I don't want things go worst,even worst than this.I miss everything about him.I wish I can tell him how much I miss him,how much I want him back in my life,how much it's killing me.

I told everyone that I'm okay,I'm fine without you but that's all are just a lie.I'm not okay without you.I'm a mess.

Sucks

My first day of school and my first day without Luqman went well.Yea I have to admit that it sucks abit.I can't get him out of my mind.He's here 24/7.I tried to forget him but failed.What should I do?He seems very happy with his life without me.and I'm dying here without him by my side.It's really hurt wake up in the morning and realize that he's gone,he's not mine anymore.I can't believe this would happen.It's a nightmare.Losing him and it feels like losing my other part of my body.It hurts so much.I don't know how to get rid of this emptiness.I don't know how.and I know we'll never be together back.I have to let him go.He don't need me.and I won't waste my time waiting for him.I'm done,but I can't forget him either.It's okay,time will heal the pain.and yea,Imma stay single for awhile.I'm not ready to love again.I'm just not ready to get another heartbroken yet.

This is it

So this is all just your fuckin game?Luqman,we're over.Goodluck with your life and goodluck on getting her back.I'll move on and I'll show to you that I don't need you,I don't need a liar like you in my life.I can find better.maybe Paul,maybe someone else.We don't know the future.So yeah,goodbye and thanks alot for breaking my heart.

Farewell 2011

Dear 2011,time flies so fast.A little bit more,its already 2012.Thank you for the whole thing.Everything changes,for the good.Things come and go,always for the best reason.but I thank God for bringing me back my old big brotahs,Faiq,Anas,Daniel.We rock the world aite?! xD and thank to God for giving me a kinda good relationship with my family back.Ekaa and Shukry,I love you.and to my best cousin Ida Eddie,you're awesome.You always here in my ups and downs.I can't imagine life without you.Hasny,you've been a really great company to me.and to Lokman's who cheer my december a lot Adib and Aiman,thankyou thankyou thankyou so much.and not forgotten,Paul Lee my seafarer who always here for me to cheer me up.A lot of thank you to you.and and and to my amazing friends Pika,Bella,Amira,Azean,Fatyn,Alia,Bash,Masz,Sai who has turn my normal school days to an exciting one.Tatemm.To Vin,omg long time no talk about you.I miss you so much and I'm not even kidding.Amir! my ex scandal haha 6 months with you,you've been a really great scandal weh.Sorry for what happened between us.My awesome beyond the awesome ex boyfriend,Razlan Roslan who's still here for me when I needed a friend to talk to.Thankyou so much I love youuuuu tall guy.and congrats to my cousins Ikha Azman and Ina Azman on their wedding.and to my baby niece Numa Alveena.Auntie love love love you muah muah :D To my whole big awesome family and cousins HI !!!!! You guys are the best! Lastly,to the guy who I love Ohmen,even we're always argue about small or big things,it doesn't matter,you'll always have a special spot in my heart no matter what happen to us next.and whoever I didn't mention in this post,I'm really sorry.but you'll always here in my mind aite?No worries.Goodbye 2011,you've been interesting,hoping 2012 would be better.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah everythings went well.Very well.I just love the way he treats me and all.He's being sweet like sugar yum yum.He's okay,I'm okay.We're both okay.happy and I got the feeling that he already forgot a bit about his past.it's a good thing.I'm trying my best to make him happy.I'll always be here for him no matter what.We've been through alot aite?We both deserve this happiness.and insyaAllah this happiness will be ours forever.We both just have to keep praying and trusting and loving each other and I believe that everythings gonna be fine.Just fine okay ayang?

Sayang,I know I told you this everyday,every hour and every minute but I just want you to know that I love you so much and you do know that aite?Yes yes I love you more than anything else in this world.

wink wink

Me and Oman.we're okay.He beg me to forgive him.and yes as usual.I melt.He promised he won't do that ever again.He said he just realize that I love him so much.Bodoh betul lembab nak realize mcm ni lah :P sorry sayangggggggggg I didn't mean it.I love youuuu so much and you know that aite?I never wanna lose you.I'm really scared of losing you.I can't imagine how I wake up with no text from you,and I go to sleep without a goodnight wish from you.No I don't want that to happen.Maybe I'm a bit over-sensitive sometimes but that's me.You have to accept me for the who I am.I don't wanna be someone else.I wanna be me when I'm with you.and I would really appreciate it if you can put your past behind you.it's for our own good.Kan sayang?and I get jealous easily.I hate it when you tweeting or wall to wall or text or picking up your ex phone calls or whatever.I just hate it.I'm sorry I can't control it.You're mine,and mine alone.No one can touch you.NO ONE.except me.Get it?If other bitch dare to touch you,I'll kill both of you.No kidding *serious face*

xD I love you yayinggggg and always will.

Whatttt?

I had a lunch with mama and papa just now.anddddddd tiba tiba mama ckp psl Oman.that's kinda weird to me.because I never really had a talk about Oman with mama.She said,'tak habis habis Oman.Pergi cari lelaki lain yg lg better lah.Cari yg betul betul sayang kita bukannya kita yg sayang dia.' and I was just like 'whatttttttttttt?' I don't get it.How did she knows about us?I never told her about this.It's kinda private to me.No need to share with MOM.Okay whatever.and

Maaa,I don't want anyone else.I want Oman.I want Muhammad Luqman bin Hassan.Only him.Can't you understand me?I know you care about me,you don't wanna see me hurt like last time but maa,I love him,so much.Maybe you were right,he don't love me as much as I love him.but hati org boleh berubah kan and everyone deserve a second chance or maybe third chance.So this is it,I'm giving him the chance that he deserve.Kay.I don't wanna leave him.I love him.I'm sorry maa.I love you but you know I won't leave Oman.I really hope you understand my situation.Love you ma.



Love,Nasrin Zal xx

Sad mood : on !

Yeah we had a fight again.I'm tired with all this shits.I'm really tired.I don't think I can go on,I mean stay strong with this things clouding on my mind,breaking my heart.I just can't

Christmas Ho Ho Ho!

Awwww so sorry it's christmas post but I update it a bit late.kinda busy with school stuffs and all.Sorry again.

I had a really great night.Thanks to Ida Eddie,Areesya Adnan,Zul Azman,Zahidi Zal,Aiman Adnan,Aiman Lokman,Adib Lokman and Aqil Lokman.I didn't sleep all night long.and I can't believe that :O okay whatever.It's not a big deal pun kan.yeahh well well,we slept at Marriott hotel,Putrajaya for one night.We got extra room soooooo we decided to lepak-ing in the room.Mula mula semua segarrrr je then at 3 semua mcm dh mengantuk sangat and they fell asleep.Tinggal I,Ida and Adib je.woop woop! Okayy I kinda malas nak tulis panjang panjang sooo hereee is our pictures together.

Tadaaaaaa aren't we look sho cute? :) Yes we are sho cute together! me like like like

Cute us

Omg we've decided what songs gonna play on our wedding reception later.LATER lah sgt padahal berapa tahun lg insyaAllah.haha so funny I'm just 16 and we're deciding things about our wedding in the next few years.haha K whatever be jealous people.My boyfriend are so amazing you can't deny that people :P No words can describe how grateful I am for having him in my life.He's the best.Yeah maybe we argue alot but hey,that's a normal thing.and that doesn't make me love him less.My love for him grows stronger every each day.I feel down sometimes when you told me about your ex.Like I'm not here.Like I don't exist at all but I learned something from that,you need time to forget her.Everyone needs time to forget their pasts.I do understand that.It's okay,but I really hope you can forget her as soon as possible.I can't wait for 'the new Muhammad Luqman'.He's gonna be amazing,much more amazing than this Muhammad Luqman.Kan kan?


:D #happyface

Better him

He's getting better Alhamdulillah.haih I have to make him forget his past,his ex I mean.I don't wanna see him suffered.No I can't see him like that.I have to stay strong.I have to :) It's not for me or for him.It's for both of us.I need to trust him and he need to trust me and himself.Without trust,there will be no us.Aite?

Sayang,I believe you're a strong guy.You can face this.I'll help you go through this shits.We'll through this together ayy?I won't leave you alone.I promise you that.I can see how you suffered but sayanggggggg,I'm here for you! Cakk ;) I'll always here kay?I won't go anywhere.but please atleast appreciate me.I love you and always will.

Apologize

I know guys,I wrote about Luqman alot lately.I don't know why but I'm pretty sure that I'm madly inlove with him.Sorry again.Sorry sorry sorry

Muhammad Luqman

No words can describe how much I love you,how much I thank to God to have you in my life.You're the best,you're simply the best.You're always there for me in my ups and downs.I don't wanna lose you,never.Maybe I can live without you but trust me,it won't be that easy.It's gonna be hard,real hard.I believe I'll go insane without you.Sayangggggg,I love you so much much much.I wish we could be together one day without a problem at all.We're gonna be happy,we're gonna be the best romantic couple in the world.Ayy? I can't wait to show to the world that you're mine,mine alone.Yes,I always hope that you'll be fully mine one day and I hope it'll be a dream come true.Aminnn.

Gurney batch '07 reunion BBQ party

Awhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Gurney-ians,I miss you guys so much.I am so happy to see you guys last night even we're not talking to each other that much.I don't mind.You guys are all grown up.I feel short,really.haha it's kinda funny how many years we didn't met but I still remember all of our memories together at Gurney.2007 was the best,we laugh,do stupid things together.It's a great memories I ever had.and I would like to see you guys again next time.InsyaAllah

and to my darling Muhammad Luqman.Thankyou for teman me last night even it's kinda boring,you're still there with me.I'm sooo grateful to have you.I love you so much sayang xx