Farewell 2011

Dear 2011,time flies so fast.A little bit more,its already 2012.Thank you for the whole thing.Everything changes,for the good.Things come and go,always for the best reason.but I thank God for bringing me back my old big brotahs,Faiq,Anas,Daniel.We rock the world aite?! xD and thank to God for giving me a kinda good relationship with my family back.Ekaa and Shukry,I love you.and to my best cousin Ida Eddie,you're awesome.You always here in my ups and downs.I can't imagine life without you.Hasny,you've been a really great company to me.and to Lokman's who cheer my december a lot Adib and Aiman,thankyou thankyou thankyou so much.and not forgotten,Paul Lee my seafarer who always here for me to cheer me up.A lot of thank you to you.and and and to my amazing friends Pika,Bella,Amira,Azean,Fatyn,Alia,Bash,Masz,Sai who has turn my normal school days to an exciting one.Tatemm.To Vin,omg long time no talk about you.I miss you so much and I'm not even kidding.Amir! my ex scandal haha 6 months with you,you've been a really great scandal weh.Sorry for what happened between us.My awesome beyond the awesome ex boyfriend,Razlan Roslan who's still here for me when I needed a friend to talk to.Thankyou so much I love youuuuu tall guy.and congrats to my cousins Ikha Azman and Ina Azman on their wedding.and to my baby niece Numa Alveena.Auntie love love love you muah muah :D To my whole big awesome family and cousins HI !!!!! You guys are the best! Lastly,to the guy who I love Ohmen,even we're always argue about small or big things,it doesn't matter,you'll always have a special spot in my heart no matter what happen to us next.and whoever I didn't mention in this post,I'm really sorry.but you'll always here in my mind aite?No worries.Goodbye 2011,you've been interesting,hoping 2012 would be better.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah everythings went well.Very well.I just love the way he treats me and all.He's being sweet like sugar yum yum.He's okay,I'm okay.We're both okay.happy and I got the feeling that he already forgot a bit about his past.it's a good thing.I'm trying my best to make him happy.I'll always be here for him no matter what.We've been through alot aite?We both deserve this happiness.and insyaAllah this happiness will be ours forever.We both just have to keep praying and trusting and loving each other and I believe that everythings gonna be fine.Just fine okay ayang?


Sayang,I know I told you this everyday,every hour and every minute but I just want you to know that I love you so much and you do know that aite?Yes yes I love you more than anything else in this world.

wink wink

Me and Oman.we're okay.He beg me to forgive him.and yes as usual.I melt.He promised he won't do that ever again.He said he just realize that I love him so much.Bodoh betul lembab nak realize mcm ni lah :P sorry sayangggggggggg I didn't mean it.I love youuuu so much and you know that aite?I never wanna lose you.I'm really scared of losing you.I can't imagine how I wake up with no text from you,and I go to sleep without a goodnight wish from you.No I don't want that to happen.Maybe I'm a bit over-sensitive sometimes but that's me.You have to accept me for the who I am.I don't wanna be someone else.I wanna be me when I'm with you.and I would really appreciate it if you can put your past behind you.it's for our own good.Kan sayang?and I get jealous easily.I hate it when you tweeting or wall to wall or text or picking up your ex phone calls or whatever.I just hate it.I'm sorry I can't control it.You're mine,and mine alone.No one can touch you.NO ONE.except me.Get it?If other bitch dare to touch you,I'll kill both of you.No kidding *serious face*

xD I love you yayinggggg and always will.

Whatttt?

I had a lunch with mama and papa just now.anddddddd tiba tiba mama ckp psl Oman.that's kinda weird to me.because I never really had a talk about Oman with mama.She said,'tak habis habis Oman.Pergi cari lelaki lain yg lg better lah.Cari yg betul betul sayang kita bukannya kita yg sayang dia.' and I was just like 'whatttttttttttt?' I don't get it.How did she knows about us?I never told her about this.It's kinda private to me.No need to share with MOM.Okay whatever.and

Maaa,I don't want anyone else.I want Oman.I want Muhammad Luqman bin Hassan.Only him.Can't you understand me?I know you care about me,you don't wanna see me hurt like last time but maa,I love him,so much.Maybe you were right,he don't love me as much as I love him.but hati org boleh berubah kan and everyone deserve a second chance or maybe third chance.So this is it,I'm giving him the chance that he deserve.Kay.I don't wanna leave him.I love him.I'm sorry maa.I love you but you know I won't leave Oman.I really hope you understand my situation.Love you ma.



Love,Nasrin Zal xx

Sad mood : on !

Yeah we had a fight again.I'm tired with all this shits.I'm really tired.I don't think I can go on,I mean stay strong with this things clouding on my mind,breaking my heart.I just can't

Christmas Ho Ho Ho!

Awwww so sorry it's christmas post but I update it a bit late.kinda busy with school stuffs and all.Sorry again.

I had a really great night.Thanks to Ida Eddie,Areesya Adnan,Zul Azman,Zahidi Zal,Aiman Adnan,Aiman Lokman,Adib Lokman and Aqil Lokman.I didn't sleep all night long.and I can't believe that :O okay whatever.It's not a big deal pun kan.yeahh well well,we slept at Marriott hotel,Putrajaya for one night.We got extra room soooooo we decided to lepak-ing in the room.Mula mula semua segarrrr je then at 3 semua mcm dh mengantuk sangat and they fell asleep.Tinggal I,Ida and Adib je.woop woop! Okayy I kinda malas nak tulis panjang panjang sooo hereee is our pictures together.




Tadaaaaaa aren't we look sho cute? :) Yes we are sho cute together! me like like like

Cute us

Omg we've decided what songs gonna play on our wedding reception later.LATER lah sgt padahal berapa tahun lg insyaAllah.haha so funny I'm just 16 and we're deciding things about our wedding in the next few years.haha K whatever be jealous people.My boyfriend are so amazing you can't deny that people :P No words can describe how grateful I am for having him in my life.He's the best.Yeah maybe we argue alot but hey,that's a normal thing.and that doesn't make me love him less.My love for him grows stronger every each day.I feel down sometimes when you told me about your ex.Like I'm not here.Like I don't exist at all but I learned something from that,you need time to forget her.Everyone needs time to forget their pasts.I do understand that.It's okay,but I really hope you can forget her as soon as possible.I can't wait for 'the new Muhammad Luqman'.He's gonna be amazing,much more amazing than this Muhammad Luqman.Kan kan?


:D #happyface

Better him

He's getting better Alhamdulillah.haih I have to make him forget his past,his ex I mean.I don't wanna see him suffered.No I can't see him like that.I have to stay strong.I have to :) It's not for me or for him.It's for both of us.I need to trust him and he need to trust me and himself.Without trust,there will be no us.Aite?

Sayang,I believe you're a strong guy.You can face this.I'll help you go through this shits.We'll through this together ayy?I won't leave you alone.I promise you that.I can see how you suffered but sayanggggggg,I'm here for you! Cakk ;) I'll always here kay?I won't go anywhere.but please atleast appreciate me.I love you and always will.

Apologize

I know guys,I wrote about Luqman alot lately.I don't know why but I'm pretty sure that I'm madly inlove with him.Sorry again.Sorry sorry sorry
Muhammad Luqman

No words can describe how much I love you,how much I thank to God to have you in my life.You're the best,you're simply the best.You're always there for me in my ups and downs.I don't wanna lose you,never.Maybe I can live without you but trust me,it won't be that easy.It's gonna be hard,real hard.I believe I'll go insane without you.Sayangggggg,I love you so much much much.I wish we could be together one day without a problem at all.We're gonna be happy,we're gonna be the best romantic couple in the world.Ayy? I can't wait to show to the world that you're mine,mine alone.Yes,I always hope that you'll be fully mine one day and I hope it'll be a dream come true.Aminnn.

Gurney batch '07 reunion BBQ party

Awhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Gurney-ians,I miss you guys so much.I am so happy to see you guys last night even we're not talking to each other that much.I don't mind.You guys are all grown up.I feel short,really.haha it's kinda funny how many years we didn't met but I still remember all of our memories together at Gurney.2007 was the best,we laugh,do stupid things together.It's a great memories I ever had.and I would like to see you guys again next time.InsyaAllah



and to my darling Muhammad Luqman.Thankyou for teman me last night even it's kinda boring,you're still there with me.I'm sooo grateful to have you.I love you so much sayang xx

Letter for you

This post are made for my darling Superman,Muhammad Luqman bin Hassan.


Hey ayang,I know you're still not okay but always remember that I'll always here for you no matter what.I promised aite?I won't leave you like this.You need someone to comfort you,to cheer you up,to support you in whatever you do.and I believe that person is me :) I won't be selfish.I'm there when you're happy so I won't leave you when you're down.We laugh together,smile together,sad together and cry together.Kay yang?I love you and it just you <3 I don't mind if you still love her.I do understand your situation.I was there at your place last time.It hurts,I know how much it hurts.I've been through it quite a lot.and I'm still here,alive.You can face this,Ohmen.Yes you can.you just have to believe yourself.You're not weak,you're my Superman remember?and Superman kan kuattttt (: It's kinda sad that I have learned to deal with things like this.Being strong means being heartless.If you really wanna forget her,keep this words on your mind --> 'If you go then I'll forget you.When you're gone I won't miss you.' I'm sorry Ohmen but that's just the way I've learned to deal with a broken heart and broken promises.and it works.You should try you know.I love you so much and I believe in you.You can face this.I got your back.Always.


I'm not telling you it's going to be easy,I'm telling you it's going to be worth it (:


Love,
Nurzuhaira Nasrin Zalaluddin

Ahhh

He brokeup with his girlfriend already but I don't think I'm happy with it.I'm sad to see him suffered.I can't see him like that.I just can't.It kills me to see him that way,that sad way.All I can do is try to cheer him up,I tried my best to comfort him,to comfort myself ;( He'll be okay,if God wills.


*Come on,Nasrin.You're stronger than this.Ohmen just brokeup with his girlfriend.You can't expect he'll forget her immediately ayy?Nasrin,you're one strong girl.You can face this.Blink away your tears and up your head.Show to the world that you're strong like a bold stone.

L-O-V-E

We're not over yet.We'll never over.Our love just grows and grows (: I fall inlove with him even more after what happened.Nothing can change my love towards him.He's too special.I love him with my whole heart.Everyone keep asking me,'why him?He's not even perfect.' I know it's weird,I don't know why either.I can't find the answer.My heart just chose him.and my heart never told me why.Maybe this is love.Love doesn't need to be perfect.It just need to be true.Ayy people?

Muhammad Luqman bin Hassan

He got his own character.He's weird in a good way.He's cute,he's funny,he's smart in his own way.What?I can't hear you?He's sick?I don't give a damn.He's perfect to me.Nothing can make me love him less.NOTHING.


I love you xx

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We're not over? APA OHMEN NI?! ckp mcm paria

It's finally over

Yea it's finally over.I can't believe he actually dump me.He doesn't care about me anymore.Oh yea I forgot that I got no feelings ayy?That's why.I'm a doll.He's too happy with his girlfriend,that's why he ignore me.He said I got someone else?NO! I swear to God I don't have anyone else.Paul,Amir wants me back but I rejected them.Why Oman why?Why can't you see that?I want you,only you.but I guess,it'll be just a dream.

Yes maybe I planned to leave him because Faiq said it's the best way but I didn't say anything yet.haih :'/ so he's the one who's leaving me.

I'm broken.I'm too broken.I miss him,I miss everything about him.His smell,his laugh,his smile,his voice,his hug,his touch.Everything.I wish I can reset everything back to normal again.I wish I can reset my brain,my heart.but I can't.It's impossible.

You're leaving me breathless.

but if you want me back,I'll always be here for you.No matter what.I promised ayy?but just makesure you're single that time.



I miss you and I love you.but I have to move on,for our own good xx
MY LIFE IS FALLING APART :(

Rawr

I confess it.You're the best thing that has ever stumbled into my life.I don't know what I'd do without you.You're always there for me and you make me smile without intending to.You're so damn cute and I can honestly say that I don't want anyone else but you.Even we're always argue about small things but I don't know why,I still wanna be here with you.I promised you I won't leave and I'll stick to my words.I love you now and forever,if God wills (:


Rawr means you're too cute and I wanna bite you ;) so Rawr!

Tadaaaaa




When we first met,I had no idea you'd become this important to me <3 *I'm bored hm yeaa I made this video just for fun (: Oh yea before you play it,press the pause button on music background tu dulu -->


ENJOY!

New

znasrinzal.blogspot.com
I've change my blog link so that is my new link (: *atas tu*

and,

Wuuu I kinda like my blog's new look.So cute,so happy.The background themes,the background music :D I am one happy blog user!
What to do.If I want him,I just have to keep waiting.and that's the hardest part :/ I don't think I can stay here,be there for him and get hurt again and again by watching they tweeting each other.Ergh I just hate the feeling I have everytime I saw their tweets.haih I don't know

but I guess I'll wait.God,make me strong.Please

3/12/2011

I met Oman yesterday.We watched Breaking Dawn together.We're okay but I don't know.I love him.I can't get mad or stay angry at him for a long period.I just can't.I had a great times with him yesterday.Awwwwwwhh btw it's not just only us,theres Ida and Anas too :) Anas fell asleep in the cinema.haha I hate him! oh yeah we booked couple seat *naughty face* ehem Omg I'm starting to miss him already.

Nextttttttttttttt,

Hm after done watching cinema,we allllllll go to Maya.For lunch! I ate Chicken Shawarma.Not badddddd.it tastes good :) and the funniest part is,Ida get stoned and hahaha Anas risau gilaaaaaaa.I have the vid.Yes I recorded it.Its a good moment *fact,it's a funny moment*

I really had fun yesterday.I love Oman so much and I don't lie.I want him to be mine.FULLY MINE,MINE ALONE.

Complicated life of mine

Wuuh,it's kinda hmm I don't know what to say.I had ups and downs.I've been so stressed out,down,sad,depressed lately.Ohmen thingy.Argh those are killing me slowly.I ate 8 pills in one night and the next morning I felt sick.I throw up,headache.Omg I hate my life.Yea about thinking to move on tu,I don't know.I'm trying to but you know,it's kinda hard.For now,I just keep my days busy.Yesterday I went for a jogg with Pika and Ida.It's workin.abit :/ I felt 'wuuuuhhh I'm okay' yesterday.and I guess I just have to keep my life busy ayy?Time will heal my heart.That's for sure.but it's a lie if I said I don't miss him.I do miss him.He texted me yesterday and we're okay but not that okay.We're more like a friend.hmm I think I should get used to it.I shouldn't love him at the first place.My fault.

This morning,I cried and you know the reason are?I felt no one ever appreciate me.I felt unneeded.Lots of things clouding on my mind.I made Alfikri left me for Oman.wtf?Isn't that stupid?Ohmen should appriciate it.I left Paul for Ohmen.I left everyone for him.Am I still not good enough to him?I know I'm not that perfect,but either do everyone.No one's perfect ayy.

I don't know what to do,what to think,what to say.I feel nothing.Ya know,I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.It sucks.and yea,thanks to him for making my heart empty.We'll see what's gonna happen next.Am I still here for him or I'm with someone else.


Heartbroken.Again