You turned my dreams into nightmares

This brokenhearted,makes me forgot all the moments when Im still with you.How happy I was when we're still okay.How much I wanna be with you.How important you were to me.How much you meant last time.we were so happy.What happend now?Yeah thts all your fuckin fault.Your little lie,makes me like this.It turned me into this unwanted bitch.

You used to say,IM NOT GANNA GET YOU A HEARTBROKEN.but yeah you lied.I just cant believe

gah I gave you yet another chance to prove to me that you were worth my time,to prove that you were different,to prove that you cared.But no,you're still the same.and I regret fr gaving you a second chance.

Warmness Of The Soul
You know how much I hate this song now.bcause it reminds me of you,it reminds me of us

You know how much I want a happy ending with you but,YOU TURNED MY DREAMS INTO NIGHTMARES and thts unforgiveable.I'll never forgive you.I swear to GOD.

Moving on is hard.But forgetting is the hardest part

I’ve had some cries in my lifetime,but tonights cry was probably the one that has meant the most.It was one of those cries where you feel like your soul is weeping along with you.Where you feel like you are letting out all the bad in your life and replacing it with new.You feel like you are cleansing your body.As much as I hate to cry I feel like tonights cry was worth it.I needed that.I needed someone to hold me while I cried and listen to my problems.I needed to release the horrible things I have been carrying around with me for so long.I needed to be released of all the burdens on my soul.Tonight I feel like I can finally move on from everything and get back to who I was and who I am.I can find me again.And you know what I realized?I am not alone in this.I am surrounded by the people that love me and the ones who will always be there for me no matter what.And I love them unconditionally for it <3 Life will get better.I have nothing to fear but fear itself and I can finally move on and push everything horribly bad away and out for good.No more hurt,and pain.Only blissfully happy thoughts for this girl.Blue skies and sunny days! <3

Sports day

Sports day was ZZZ.Bored to the max! maybe cheer and band perfomances was great but the rest,NO.BIG NO NO NO.dengan hujannya.ha thumbs up! Cochrane Sports day 2011 the best.Palingg ha --'

26/6

I went to Wangsa walk with my baby cuzs just now :D We watched Rasuk.Iee boring.Me no likey.Yerk and and I bought nail colour and bird ring (: thts me likey sooo muchie.but I really hope I can buy all of those rings and necklaces.but no money laaa :( Pity aite? nvm Imma get em later hihi Okay Im freakin tired.night peeps

OFF TO BED-

Proud

Lee Man Paul (:
I know I never post anything abt him before but this is it.hes my friend,sort of :D hes so kind and 'awwwww' me always hihi and and Im so so proud of him.Mannnnn,I really proud of you.After SPM result,now hes working as a seafarer! and now hes currently at pacific ocean.Hope hes ganna be justttt fine aite.and Paul Lee,I really really hope you're not ganna forget me and please do takecare of yourself fr me yeahhh? ♥

Me and Amir had this 'talks' last night.and he said he got reason why he lied and bla bla.I dont think he got reason.nahh I dont trust him anymore.wtv he said even its true,I just cant believe him.Sorry maybe we meant to stay like this.

Hatred

I HATE YOU SO MUCH AND I DONT EVEN KIDDING.You lied to me and now you beg fr forgiveness? Do you think tht Im ganna forgive you just like that? You know,I hate everything about you.yes,EVERYTHING.Dont blame me fr this.You made me like this.You turned me into this bitch.Its not my fault.You lied lied and lied.I HATE YOU! I dont know how.but it seems got no word to describe how much I hate and regret fr knowing you.I swear.You with your fuckin innocent face,Ergh it makes me sick! Dont look at me with those shitsssss face.I dont wanna even look at it.You really make me sick Amir.

Daddy's day

Happy Father's day,Papa! ♥
Iloveyou so muchieeee

You're the coolest daddy ever! (:

Love

My everything.Yeah he is.I love him so much and I never lie.Hes diff from others.hes the best person ever.he always make me smile and laugh.he never let me down like others used to.I never regret fr having him in my life.hes the reason fr good things happend in my life,my world.hes not perfect that I cant deny.No ones perfect aite.I just love him.I never wanna lose him.Never.I cant live without him by my side.

Shukry,dont ever you leave me.bcause Im so scared.I need you so much.You sure do know tht aite? (:

Bandcomp (:

I went to bandcomp yesterday at Stadium Hoki Pandamaran,Klang.The comp was awesome! (:
Cochrane did veryyyy well but unfortunely they didnt win but its kayyy.High School Klang was wow me.I dont lie.They were sooo good.Congratessss.St.John eitherrr.Ahhh they're great (: and after that I and Arra and Shukry and bla bla ramai gila went to The Curve.We ate Mcd and watch some drumline perfomances.Whatta great day ever.Im loving my life now.

Okayy I really had a great day yesterday haha Shukry's friends makes me laugh like hell I swear! they're coolness! :D Yeahhhmey.

Arra and Shukry I miss you two so muchieee and I really hope we can go out more next time.

<3

Funny me

I stalk Lisa's my super stupid idiot ex girlfriend and Omg I found Amir's gf wrote on her wall! Arghhhhh Why must her know tht stupid Lisa?So I added she up (: and and she approved! Ulalala but wait,Im not ganna harm her or wtv.Imma good girl you knw hihi

So jyeah Amir called me last night.IEE GILA AWKWARD talking to him.Shshsh hate it.and he ask me whether Imma accept him back or not.I said idk.I really dont know.but I think Imma stay like this fr awhile.While giving Amir and his gf abit space and later maybe I can fully forget him.Aite?

Have a great good day everyone (:

Bless me June

Well,lotsss of thing happend on June.
My brithday,Alia's and Haziq's birthday,Ida's and tokmak's birthday and bla bla.Omg I swear I hate it.My birthday turns out like HELL.but its okayyyyyyy Shoohhh from my mind --' I just broke me and Amir's scandal thingy relationship blahh.Sweeeeettt.He lied and ofcourse,I really hate when someone lied to me.Im enough with him.Im enough with guys.They're all just freakin same.Mannn I really hope tht isnt true.hah whatta funny life aite.They come and go and come and go.Funny and complicated life yeap it is complicated.

Nowwwww,Imma abt to blow out.Im really really tired.I dont wanna go to school.Amira,Kelven went to band training while Im freakin alone in tht ergh wtv class.Theyre all like seriously shit fake.I bet recess today ganne be suck.Me alone.Argh no wayyyyy.

Tomoz BANDCOMP! (: Okay thts really exciting I guess.I loveeeeeeeeeeeee Cochrane Band alotttt.Paling ye ;D Nahhhh I really love em.Cant wait to see my Jasa Fitri throw the fuckin mace up.and my Karipap Panas group too hehe :D Buttttttt,I really have no idea with who Imma go to that Stadium.Klang,its like a million miles awayyyyy.Okayy papa ganna send me there but still,I gatta have a friend to go there or im all alonee later.and I really dont want tht to happen.

Gtg.School's calling.Ciao peeps

Dear scandal,

Sitting here with a box of tissues and listening to nothing but music that reminds me of you and what came between us.And theres nothing I can do but cry every time I think of our memories together,or even the music that gives a slight hint of a reminder of you.
I’ve told you that I hate you for what you have done to me and how much I hate you for making me go through this over and over again.Everytime I think about what you have done to me just makes me hate you and never do I want to think of you again because you have left a scar forever that I cannot get rid of.I dont wanna cry about it anymore.Ive lost so much energy and tears for you.I cant deal with it anymore.

AL (:

He called me just now.Awww I miss him so muchieee (: Tgk Kamal Adli je igt dia --'
Sweeeeett.He called me and we had a really fun talk.Tak gaduh dahhhhhh.and and I told him about Amir.ergh paling tk perlu sebenarnya I knowwwww.My fault.but Im still confuse.I mean he said he love me but I dont know whether to believe him or not bcause hehe I stalk his facebook page and I saw this one girl wrote on his wall.loveyou ♥.Hes flirting around with hm quite lotttsss of girls.Nahhh maybe Al main main je dgn I about the sayang thingy.Nvm got used to it edy.

Liar

Wow cant believe.Hes such a liar.A big liar.and know what?
I HATE HIM SO MUCH AND I DONT LIE
I hate to say this but
I regret for knowing him
I regret for loving him
I regret for trusting him

Told ya I hate you so much capital A (!)

Wedding on December 2011

Its Angah and Abg Amir's Wedding! (:
Awhhhh I cant believe.Kak Nadya dh gave birth to a baby girl and now Angah nak kahwin.After this Along,lepastu Elly and Zul :p btw Congrates to Zulaikha Azman and Amir Esa (:


Stays forever <3

Hello School :)

Tomoz.School!!!!!!!!!!! I cant believe :D hehe Im excited wanna meet all my friends and my adowable classmates! miss em lotsssss <3 Ganna sleep early tonight.Nights peeps (:

I wish that things werent so confusing
I wish you're fully mine
I wish we're ganna stays forever
but,dreams ganna stay as a dreams
It would never ever come true
So Nasrin,do remember that Amir is just a fairytale.Thats all :(

Done

OMG idk you anymore.you'd freakin changed! erghhhhhh Im done.Idk what to do anymore and I think i dnt wanna do anything either.Its all up to you now.

I wanna die :'(

Probs

Im in undescribable feeling right now.Im down Im sad.Id lost alottt of people in my life.
First,Razlan.Second,Acap.Third,Timmy.4th,Lisa.5th,Al.6th,Aby.7th,Boon.Wow whatta lucky me kannn :) Razlan dgn Al tu tak pelaaa.mmg dh okay now so didnt feel like losing em.but the others,Acap,nahhh its okay hes a cheater.Timmy,haih I dnt knw.Lisa,shes gone.Aby,yeah we used to be a good friend and now,nopeee.and Boon,he left without a word.he lied,yeah.He said he wont never leave me.but..yeah he lied.Luckily now I got Amir.but still,he gatta gf.I cant stay with him forever aite.Complicated life of mine I knowww.haih

I got the fuckup week ever! Nothing special abt my birthday.ERGHH hate it.I hate my life soo muchie :( Mama buat mcm tak heran.GOOD.I hate my life and I really mean it! Fak

Bored birthday of mine

Yesterday was my birthday.and yeah I hate it.It fulls of NOTHING.haih
I wokeup at 9.30 and pickup Elly at 10.30,siap siap and heading to pavi.
and waited fr Faiq and Zameir.and bla blaaa FREAKIN BORED.I swear.and at 7,balik and guess what.visit Kak Nadya dia dh give birth :) but still its my
birthday,SHIT.I had to visit baby and her mummy on prince court.ergh wtv
but Im happy bcause baby Numa Alveena was born on same date as me.yeap Im happy (!)
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